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A couple of things about the message Castiel sends this night are immediately and noticeably different from his usual fare. He's holding his tablet's camera steady, for one, at a normal distance from his face, without his thumb over the camera or microphone and without fumbling as the recording starts. He's more expressive, too - movements less stiff and birdlike, expression natural and less like a immensely old being trying to operate a human face. Even his voice has changed slightly. It's a little higher than it was, which isn't saying much, but it's also lost the droning, almost pained sounding growl it once had.
Of course, this is all entirely natural. He's had a very, very long time to get used to both the tablet and this body. ]
I've been thinking a lot about time, recently. It's... funny. I can't tell if it works differently in this place, or if this is just how humans - or mortals in general - always experience it. It's different for me, at least.
It used to be that I could blink and months would just... fly by. Sometimes years. My existence wasn't one that lent itself well to counting individual days. You can't do that when you operate on the scale of time I used to. My mind just isn't made for it. I tried a few times, but I always lost track somewhere in the tens of thousands.
I'm getting distracted. My point is I know I can't have been here for more than the tiniest fraction of my life, but at the same time it feels like... an eternity, because I've experienced every single day, one by one, and be present for each in a way that I often wasn't before. And I wonder - how do all of you live like this? How do you live with how achingly
slow time feels, in a place like this?