snowblindrpg | [network] Event: Long & Lost [NIGHT 217]

puppets are pretty freaky, kiddo. i'm real sorry that you're freakin out, it sounds kinda like youre havin a panic attack. maybe hyperfocusing a little

ive known some pretty all right puppets in my time. or. ventriloquist dummies! but ya don't wanna talk about puppets, right.

puppets. or death.

that should be easy

....okay, i got nothin

but i'm gonna try an talk to you i guess because the alternative is going all word vomit crazy like before!!!! hi im harley and im terrified of myself

fuck

i mean, whats yr name, kiddo

im not having a panic attack
im freaked out but im pretty sure i havent actually had one of those
i just cant shut the fuck up
which is basically the whole problem right now
and no i dont want to talk about ventriloquist dummies or anything else in that category

[Okay, okay, focus on something else. Breathe, damnit.]

ok maybe i am panicking a little i dont know
im davesprite
are you like
the actual harley quinn
harley knows the joker quinn
harley giant goddamn harlequin pun quinn
or do you just like comics

yeah, that's me! have you seen fan comics or somethin? glad u got the pun, regardless--so many people don't have an appreciation for the fine art of punnin' these days!

nice 2 meetcha, davesprite! that's kinda an odd name. does it run in the family? not that im here to judge harleen isn't exactly the greatest of names.

not exactly but nevermind
im feeling existential enough as it is
and no its not a family name
things that become sprites get sprite stuck on the end of their name
and im a dave who became one so thats my name now
but i dont really want to talk about that either

okay, davey!! feel free 2 talk about whatever u wanna talk about or maybe i'll just talk atcha

i am also really scared that my babies aren't gonna do well with mama away for so long....do ya have any pets, davey? my boys r soooo good <3 <3

just call me davesprite
not davey
and nah no pets
not really
there were a bunch of crows that used to hang out on the roof of the apartment building i lived at
after i busted my window they kind of invaded my room like feathery freeloaders
and now im part crow too
but thats not really the same thing
tell me about your pets

can i call u spritey??
oh i have a pal who likes crows!! the professor! a lot of my friends have really weird obsessions, come 2 think abt it.
i have two hyenas--bud n lou! they're my babies, i love them so much!! i hope they're safe....
i think i'd be cool w like. cute lil hyena ears. how r u part crow?

fuck no
its just davesprite ok
i dont get why people keep having trouble with that
im not just dave and im not just a sprite
im both
and the sprite thing is how im part crow
a sprite is made from what you put in this thing called a kernel
and a crow went in before i did so bam im a crow now

[It's a simplified version, but it is true.]

id ask why you think having a couple hyenas is a good idea
but if you willingly hang out with the joker i think that speaks for itself
better if theyre in your world than here though
this place isnt real kind on animals

c'mon, kiddo, how am i supposed ta give ya a nickname if ya keep denyin them?
n can ya fly? or squak? do ya fight monsters with a crow bar?

listen, bud n lou are good boys!! definitely wonderful pets. but, me n mr j, we might be on the outs right now
what happens 2 animals here??? :(

ive got other nicknames but theyve got more personal associations at this point
clint called me ds but hes gone
house calls me tang but youre nothing like house
if you want to give me something just dont base it on my name
because that just leads into identity issues and i dont want to deal with that with a stranger

[Jesus fuck he is tired already of dropping admissions like that everywhere. He'd keep it a lot more quiet normally.]

anyway i cant fly here
i used to but now all i can do is float a couple inches off the ground and thats it
i can make bird noises though
and i used a sword not a crowbar though right now ive got neither

the thing about animals is that this place is just really fucking dangerous
its cold you know
and theres not much actual food designed for them around
all ive got in my bag right now is convenience store stuff so imagine trying to feed a dog or a hyena or whatever
apart from the cat here the animals ive known keep dying
dug did
lucky did
and i think the cat has only survived because hes somehow a constellation that has been alive for basically forever and knew a bunch of gods in his world
hes not really the regular kind
even normal people here die way too often for comfort
this is my fourth time i revived from here
not everyone comes back

floatin aint so bad. and that's fine. i'll wait til i actually meetcha to come up w a nickname, then

i should prolly go lookin for food, huh? it wasn't the most pressin thing on my mind when i got here, i kinda freaked out a lil and ran. im sry that youve had to see so many pets die, thats real sad. and im even sorrier that youve been dyin, kiddo. thats real rough, on the brain and on the heart. it ain't fair that anyone has gotta go through that.

even a magical cat dont deserve to be here. hell, i dont think anyone does

what kinda bird noises do ya make

[The bird noises are easier to handle first. He swaps over to audio and makes a series of them, mostly the usual caws one would associate with a crow, at varying pitch and intensity. But there's also things like an sort of rattling, raspy, scraping noises, and odd croaks and coos.]

[Then it's back to text.]

bam
bird noises
enjoy
but lets move on from all the dying
i feel crap enough about that without talking about it
like worrying im just going to die again or feeling like those animals dying was my fault

[...]

and saying things i dont want to spit out either
jesus
point is being here sucks ass and i wouldnt wish it on anyone
have you been linked the guides and maps and stuff yet
you seem nicer than the joker so im going to assume youre a better person than he is
and i like helping people

Edited (belated edit to reduce word repetition) 2017-03-14 02:20 (UTC)

cool bird noises, kiddo! ngl, i have a friend who would definitely like that!

yeah, i sure have! steph and studly an al have been rly helpful! thank u though

im not really a good person haha i cheat and lie and steal to get what i want and i aint afraid to use people who care about me.

[...ah, shit.]

...guess no one has a filter tonight.

ok so
maybe i should stop talking to you
last criminal type guy i tried to make friends with wound up taking advantage of this other dude in a pretty awful way
and i dont want to deal with that kind of thing

[It's one thing if she admits it, but it doesn't absolve his wariness.]

well jeez, kiddo, don't box us all into one category!
sorry abt the last guy tho sounds like hes a real dick
im in recovery! i mean, im always in recovery! but hey, im tryin, and i aint even killed anyone yet
good on ya to be wary, tho!

[he seems like a good kid!]

yet????????

i had ta threaten studly because he said some mean things about my babies. but no, not yet!

studly
you mean house
jesus look hes a jackass but he doesnt deserve to get murdered
hes died way too many times as it is
and i dont want to talk to someone who thinks threatening or committing murder is ok in the first place
do you have any idea how many times people die around here just from survival hazards
too many of them havent come back
the morgues have shelves with their bodies stored in them
it is morbid as shit and i hate that im stuck in this one until morning

jeez, jeez, i'm sorry kid.
yeah hes a jackass, but i aint actually gonna kill someone just for that
an he just did somethin real nice for me, so consider it void
if u dont wanna talk to me anymore i understand but u gotta be talkin to someone, davesprite

bc ur freaking out and you dont deserve 2 be stuck alone in a morgue until morning

just dont threaten people like that in the first place
if you actually want to recover and arent lying to me then thats a pretty crucial step right there
ive got other people to talk to and ive been through worse than spending a night in the morgue so dont worry about me

okay, kiddo. old habits.

i can promise that i aint lying to you, though. i promised someone real important to me that ill get better

this maybe isnt the best place to do it, but maybe i can still try

this place isnt the best for anything but dying a whole lot and freezing your ass off
sometimes at the same time
that and questioning reality but its going easy on me right now so im gonna leave that topic right where it is
im going to hold you to that promise harley

questionin reality sounds like my usual tuesday
i dunno if id be able to tell if it was this place or me tbh
it probably doesnt matter tho
i wont kill studly. promise
n if he makes good on his word 2 get me meds somehow ill even thank him
deal?

deal
but nah trust me this place messes with you
have you heard about mn poisoning
plus theres shit like us being dragged around to other places without remembering how we got there
or seeing things that arent real
weird dreams too
one time this static happened that just straight up made people feel like they were the only real one around
i wound up wandering out into the snow and froze to death because i was convinced i was dying already and all the static and people i thought were fake were glitches from my code degrading
turns out it doesnt actually work like that when i die

[A pause.]

i didnt want to say that but apparently ive got no goddamn choice right now

i kinda read about it in onea the guides
oh good that sounds perfect for my grasp on reality i love having to question that even more than the occasional psychosis leads me to
this place aint good.

yeah. tonight is oversharin night
im. so scared im gonna wind up back with mistah j
especially if this place messes with reality as much as yr sayin
aint gonna be good for my chances
fuck
im gonna try to keep my promise
i swear

@harleyquinnxoxo ; text

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shes trying to help ok

she is doing her best

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(cw: discussion of mental illness, drug mention)

cw: discussion of unreality and unintentional suicide

cw: discussion of unreality, mental illness