snowblindrpg | [network] Event: Long & Lost [NIGHT 217]

[softly, harley nods. her expression is something very close to miserable, and her voice gets quiet again.][she hates admitting that; that her psychosis, mood swings, hallucinations make her sick. but she knows it, and she's afraid of it.]

I'm sorry about your folks. Honest. My dad's in the slammer, has been in and out since I was a girl, and my mom prefers my lowlife brother better. Least I got nieces and nephews, even if my brother spends all the money I send them on gambling instead of private school tuition like I asked.

I'm terrified they'll wind up like me.

Anyway, I think the only real family I got is Kitty n' Red. And they think I'm dumb or annoyin' half the time, so it's not the greatest family, but hey. It's what I got.

Edited 2017-03-16 03:21 (UTC)

Catwoman's good people. She's a thief, and she's dangerous, but she takes care of her people. I like that. I still wish I could have gotten her to train me herself, but. [ She shrugs. It turned out well enough, even if she still misses Eiko sometimes. ]

Ivy's like that too. They've got solid, real priorities. You know where you stand with them, even if it's... probably not a very good place.

[ She's trying to focus on the positive here, but of course that's not an option tonight. ]

I'm... I'm not that good a person. I'm not like Red Robin or Bluebird or Orphan. People are gonna figure it out eventually and I'm not sure what I'll have left when they do.

Selina's real good, yeah. We got mad at her, though, last time I saw 'er, because the only reason she was with us was ta keep us out of trouble for Batsy. But I think Red was more mad than I was, yanno? I get it. Batman's probably a real catch.

An' Red is--Pamela, she's--I hurt her, real bad. On purpose, because I was with Puddin', and I wanted to. But she keeps on forgivin' me. For some reason.

[yeah, "some reason." don't play innocent, harl.]

They're good people. An' you are, too, kid. Trust me; I'm one a' the bad guys. An' I know the good guys when I see 'em. Ya reached out ta me, and talked to me, about a whole lotta stuff. You might be scared an' sad. But the Bat's a real good judge a' character. You ain't anywhere near as bad as ya think you are.

Maybe Batman was just the excuse. Selina doesn't seem like the type to do anything just because some guy told her to.

[ But for the rest of it... ]

People here seem to think I'm pretty great, most of the time. They don't realize just how much I keep to myself. Just how often I hurt people, or how intentional it is.

I don't know the deets, Stephy. All I know is that Red was super pissed!

[she frowns, however, when stephanie continues talking. poor kid.]

There ain't a single person alive who doesn't deliberately hurt other people sometimes. And trust me. I'd give it ta you straight if I didn't think you were a good guy, yanno? I'm not one to say things just to spare some cape's feelins. I know bad. You ain't it, kiddo.

Yeah? You think so? Even if its my friends I hurt?

[ She has a LOT of guilt over manipulating things so Batman knocked Al out to get him away from the Joker. ]

I--I think it depends on your intentions. If ya hurt your friends knowingly just ta hurt them, that's pretty shitty. But if ya had good intentions, then I don't think means you're a bad person.

[she bites her lip, and casts her eyes at the ground. she fidgets for a little bit, expression guilty.]

I hurt Red real bad, for no other reason than ta hurt her. 'Cause I was with Puddin'. An' I take advantage of her all th' time. Ain't that fucked up?

[Puddin' loves her. harley knows that, even if everyone denies it--just because his kind of love is different from everyone else, doesn't mean that he does't feel it. but the only one who loves her normally is Pamela, and she's scared--]

I'm scared she won't love me anymore.

[shit.]

[ That makes her feel better, but only a little. Because the fact is, the road to Hell is paved with good intentions. It's the same doubt she has about Batman.

But if she's only as bad a person as Batman, that isn't so terrible, right? ]

I wish I could tell you that everything is going to be fine, but I don't really know Ivy at all.

She did love you, though, right?

[ Steph is not sure what kind of love Harley is referring to here, but she figures it doesn't really matter right now. ]

[no, it isn't. in harley's book, you're a great person, steph.]

She did, yeah. That's what I--used against 'er. It's what I use against her every time.

[she gives a sad little smile.]

...Don't worry, kiddo. If ya think you're bad, ya ain't got nothin' on me.

I won't lie and say I approve. But if you want to change - and I think you do - you're going to need a support system.

And even if she doesn't love you anymore, she's proof that you can be loved. That there's another way.

Well, gee, kiddo. You're bein' awful nice. If I didn't know any better, I'd say you're startin' to like me.

[she offers a tired grin.]

It's okay. I won't tell Batsy.

Pretty sure I'm allowed to like whoever I want. Wouldn't be the first time I've told him to suck it.

And what would your friends think, knowing you like a Batkid? You gotta toe the company line, Harl.

Yeah, ya are. And they wouldn't be surprised. I think they know I always kinda liked you all.

Hell, Red's even seen me lay a smooch on Batsy! He wasn't the best kisser, but hey! I chalk that up to surprise on his part. At least, I hope so for Kitty's sake!

[ She sticks her tongue out in an exaggerated "yick" expression. ]

Maybe save your kisses for someone whose face moves. Like, Superman maybe. I'll bet that wouldn't be like kissing a statue. [ She remembers their brief Pamela talk, and adds: ] Or Wonder Woman. I wonder what it's like to kiss a demigod.

Are ya kiddin' me? Superman would be such a borin' kisser! The guy's practically a boyscout! I bet the only kisses he's every gotten are from his momma!

[she chuckles, before considering.]

Wonder Woman's definitely a babe. An' Powergirl. Heck, Batgirl's pretty cute, but I try ta not mix business n' pleasure.

[whoops.]

He's gotten at least one from Wonder Woman, and it certainly looked juicy.

[ She is such a snoop. Fortunately they're broken up now so it's not a security issue to dish on them. ]

Batgirl's pretty cute, if you're into that kind of thing. Not really my type. Now if Selina was ten years younger...

[ How did they reach this point, what has happened to Steph's life ]

Oh reaaaaaaaaally? Do tell!

[cape gossip is probably the best thing to happen to this wretched snow hell.]

Ya'd have to compete for attention with Kitty's cats! But...yanno...Okay, whaddabout this?

[harley has had an Idea.]

FMK. Uhhh. That green alien guy in the Justice League. Killer Croc, aaaaaaaaand....Calendar Man!

[ She makes SUCH a face. ]

Calendar Man, really? God, fine.

Screw the Martian, because he's a shapeshifter, and yes please. Marry Calendar Man I guess, and kill Croc. Nothing against him personally, I'd just rather have a whimp husband if it has to be someone grody either way.

Your turn. Superman, Booster Gold, and... ooh, Doctor Fate.

Damn, girl, we started with Supes, an' now we're scrapin' the bottle of the barrel! I feel like all a' the capes outside Gotham kinda suck, unless they're Supes, so whatever. Let's roll.

[harley snickers, and then pauses to weigh her options. this is Serious Business.]

Okay. All right. Marry Supes, because I don't wanna be hitched ta some C-Lister. Fuck Booster Gold, because ya can actually kinda see his face. And murder Doctor Fate's ass, that mask is ridiculous.

Hmmm. Okay, okay.

Professah Crane, The Brain, and, uh....Negative Man.

I was aiming for the worst of the worst.

[ It's significantly harder with heroes than bad guys. ]

This is why you're a villain, Harley.

Screw Negative Man. I'm reasonably sure that wouldn't kill me. Kill Crane, because if I don't he'll drug me in my sleep. Which means I'm marrying the Brain, I guess.

Batman, Superman, Wonder Woman. The big three.

I'm a riot at slumber parties! An' Professah Crane is a perfectly nice guy!! He's like a second dad ta me!

[harley pauses and reevaluates her statement.]

Okay, maybe more like a weird uncle. But he's a sweetheart, really!

Marry Batman! I know he cares about me, even if we ain't in love or nothin'. He's a good guy!! Hey, does that make me your stepmom? Go to your room!!

An', uh....screw Wonder Woman, kill Supes. I get to brag that I killed Superman! I mean, how rad is that?

Anyway. Uh. How's about...oh!! I got it.

[she smirks. oh, boy.]

Studly, Maggie, an'....uh....Batsy. Okay, I couldn't think of a third from Snow Hell.

[for those just tuning in, that's House, Magenta, and...Batman. Good luck, there, Steph.]

Edited (i forgot to igve steph an fmk) 2017-03-22 07:14 (UTC)

That would require Batman being my dad, and that's a big No Thanks.

[ But whatever. ]

You know I have a boyfriend. One my age? Who doesn't make me genuinely nauseous to think about having sex with him?

[ Can she choose none of the above, she chooses none of the above. ]

I didn't know ya had a guy! What's he like?

[she loves romance...she truly, truly does. and the idea of there being romance in such a hopeless place as here...ah, it warms her heart!!]

Does he live here? In Snow Hell? Or, uh, is he from back home?

Ooh, can I guess? Is it Nightwing? I know he tries to be all independent an' stuff, but he's definitely a Batbrat!

It's not anyone from home. His name is Zach, and he's great.

Wait, but don't ya wanna get everyone back home? How's that gonna work out, kid?

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[video, private] harley has also seen a boob!!! at least one

[video, private] between the two of them they've practically seen her naked!

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