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[network] @username; text; night 164 [open]

[It's all over.

He's almost glad that he has John and his grief to focus on right now, because otherwise his paranoia would be burning a hole through his head. His username is out there, linked with his real name, linked even with photographs. They're public, anyone can see them, so many people already have. He has to do something about this, stop people from coming after him. Not that he doesn't deserve their anger, or their revenge, but it will just lead to more people getting hurt.

There's only one thing to do.

He can feel fear twisting in his gut as he picks up the tablet and sends out probably one of the shortest messages that's been broadcast.]

My name is Bucky Barnes. I'm not safe to be around. Stay away from me.

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[He could explain that the reason he was so adamant for Davesprite to stay in the gift shop was because of how terrified he was that he would hurt the kid. But he won't. Explanations will sound like excuses, he has the important thing here.]

Good. See that you do.

[At least Davesprite isn't asking questions, which Bucky is both surprised and relieved about, he's just going to heed the warning.]

stop ordering me around
im doing it because i choose to

Then it's a good choice. I don't want to hurt you.

[Remember that whole thing about not asking questions?]

yeah you said and i remember
it was my voice that was crapped out not my memory
what changed your mind though
we both know watson didnt beat himself half to death

[Have a question.]

[Damn.

There's a long pause, it itches at the back of his skull to keep sharing over the public network. But he's chosen his course of action and now he has to stick to it.]

You're right, he didn't.

[That's an explanation, right? He doesn't want to make excuses for is actions.]

He had information I wanted, he wouldn't give it to me.

the word youre looking for is "torture"

psycho

so how come you dont want to hurt anyone now
did i not have juicy enough info for your glass shard to extract
or are you trying to play up the whole oh no i can change i want to change
we can make it work baby just give me one more chance
youve already got watson playing the beaten wife role
oh no officer its fine
im just so clumsy
i ran into the door seven times then fell down a flight of stairs and out the window
j here doesnt want to hurt anyone honest

[He flinches back from the tablet for a moment. This is what he's slipped to... what would Steve say? He'd be so disappointed, he might even finally realise Bucky isn't the good man he's believed in all this time.

It makes his heart ache.]

I didn't ask him to lie to me. I know what I did was wrong.

[Nope, still not answering that 'how come'.]

then answer the question
or ill assume youre lying about not wanting to hurt people too

[He nearly answers, nearly. There's a very long pause before he replies.]

Why would I lie about that?

you tell me bucky
maybe if you go all i dont WANT to hurt anybody long enough someone will take pity
all its not his fault he just has problems
ive seen it happen with others
or maybe youre just that deluded about it that you think if you keep repeating it itll magically become true
or maybe youre trying to get peoples guards down in some weird backwards way

[He has the opposite problem, people taking pity on him when it is his fault.

But he's not going to argue it any more, Davesprite has already said he's staying clear and that's all he needs, so he hangs up.]

[WHATEVER, BUCKY. Trust levels are at an all time low so he absolutely will be avoiding him.]

[John's been mostly staying out of it. He doesn't really trust himself, the state he's in right now. But this is too much.]

I'm not some bloody battered wife. It's more complicated than that, all right?

ok
youre neither a woman nor married to bucky barnes
and the injuries didnt happen in the way described above
tell me where the rest of the comparison is wrong
and dont bullshit a bullshitter because you lied to me once already and also you suck at it

Well, I'm not protecting him because I'm in love with him. The aquarium was the first time we'd ever met in-person.

get to the point watson

He has problems, specific triggers. I know him as a character from my world. I ping those triggers because of what I know by virtue of keeping up with the Avengers films. It's not just him who's paranoid over what I know after I accidentally released the private notes in my casebook here when I'd only mean to release part of it.

Scared people make bad decisions. He and others are afraid of me. That's understandable. How the hell should they know they can trust me? He came after me because he was trying to find out the extent of my knowledge and I wouldn't tell him except where it concerned him.

We scuffled because I ran from him and fought back. You saw him with his arm off. I did a hell of a lot of extra damage to his shoulder in the middle of our fight, it's just not as visible as my injuries. He could have tortured me for the information after getting me down. He didn't. He let me go and helped me get cleaned up.

[Davesprite reads through, sighs, and takes a good long moment to think it all through. When he answers again, it's privately.]

so either youre from the future compared to me or your world has different movie franchises
whatever
some people have fiction about their lives in other universes
somehow batman managed no to flip his shit on me about it
or you about the sherlocke and watson thing
but bucky boy here decides he needs to hurt you that badly?
just because he stopped partway through doesnt excuse the rest
or make him not a danger
or mean you should lie about it
what if someone else crops up who knows shit and he goes off on them too huh
he clearly knows hes dangerous and doesnt want you lying for him if how fast he corrected the record with charles is any clue

It's 2013 in my time.

And I already told Batman I know about him from movies and comics when he turned up. Might've helped getting him ready for it. And believe you mean, I had my 'flip out.' It was just months ago when I was yelling at Steve Rogers and Peggy Carter, calling them actors while they told me I was some modern adaptation of a book about bloody Victorians in their world.

I'm not saying that Bucky isn't dangerous, either. It's why I've been quick to try to jump between him and other people. It's why I've been supplying him with meds that can slow him down. He's aware he's got a problem and he's trying to fix it. Ms. Romanov and the other Avengers are also coming to collect him so that they can prevent anything else from happening.

I lied because I didn't want a lynch mob coming after him. He feels guilty about what he did.

the world ended on april 13, 2009 for me
its been three years since then because shits complicated but thats the end of my reference pool

i already know theyre coming for him because they told me
all im saying is im not going to lie to cover his ass when ive got no motivation to do so
did you miss the part where i was trying to stop sora from getting involved
or telling charles he was a dipshit with the axe and everything
go get on his case
hes the one who told me he didnt want to avoid bloodshed

I didn't miss it. But whether you meant to or not, showing people those pictures, telling them I'm his battered boyfriend or whatever? That's going to cause a panic, Davesprite. Yeah, you have every right to be afraid of him. But we were getting him to help and you knew the others were coming.

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How badly did he injure you? Where are you now?

I'm at the pharmacy in the ice tunnels, Ecks. I'm managing. Please don't worry. I'm watching him right now, and we're getting him to people who are going to watch him in the future so that he doesn't hurt anyone else.