[network] @thebigc; video - night 275 [open] [possible eventual mention of needles & medical]

[onlytwothings]

[ Wilson doesn't want to use video, but he figures any apology should be done so people can see it. And he does intend to apologize. ]

Hey. It's Wilson again. Uh-

[ He coughs. This is awkward, for more than one reason. ]

I'd ask how everyone's doing, but that's a bad question to ask after recent events.

[ Obviously tensions are high among certain parties, and people have died. Too many, in his opinion. But he didn't come on the network to go on his soapbox about death and murder. ]

I think some of you might have seen something. [ He coughs again. This is just not something he wants to be talking about, but he's already started and can't stop now. ]' Something involving me when I wasn't myself.

[ He half wishes he were in a more vengeful mood, then he'd do something like kick House or saw his cane in half again for putting videos like that on the network. But as it is, he's not, and it's a waste of time anyway. ]

Sorry you all had to see that. I wish no one had actually seen it.

[ And as an added thought, since things have been very hard on certain people, he says: ]

If anyone needs anything, or if I can do anything, just let me know.

[ He probably won't get any offers, but he's going to put it out there anyway. ]

Comments

@Spoiler ; video

[spoileralert]

Don't beat yourself up too much, you know? Most of us have tried to kill someone at one point or another since coming here.

@thebigc ; video

[onlytwothings]

I didn't kill anyone. [ He wouldn't be making a public post if he had. ] I just- Well, there was an experiment done involving me while I wasn't myself.

I'm not sure how many people saw it.

video

[spoileralert]

[ ... ]

I should really go back over everything I read or watched while I was sick. I could swear I watched it but I have no memory of what actually happened.

video

[onlytwothings]

Maybe that's a good thing. I wish I didn't know what happened.

video

[spoileralert]

Yeah, I wish I could remember less too. Or at least feel my bruises less. I went a little nutso after lockdown.

@user; voice

[cosmicwords]

We've all been through quite a lot lately.

What happened wasn't your will. Remember that.

@thebigc; voice

[onlytwothings]

[ That really doesn't make him feel better, but he can at least appreciate the sentiment behind it. ]

I'm not comparing myself to the others who-

[ He coughs. ]

They're the ones we should be feeling sorry for. [ He just got turned into a test subject because he didn't say no. It pales in comparison to what happened to others. ]

@user; voice

[cosmicwords]

Hm... Do you think it's not possible to feel sorry for everyone?

We don't need to compare suffering.

[A pause.]

But...

Would you mind telling me what happened? I saw the video but I admit I wasn't sure what the intention behind the experiment was.

@thebigc; voice

[onlytwothings]

In this case? Yes.

[ Because he got off way easier than say, Quark or Luna, who he's never actually met, just heard talked about. ]

Well, I lost all sense of self, and House thought he might be able to fix me by injecting me with his blood. He thought that since he experienced the same symptoms I had after injecting himself with my blood, I'd experience his symptoms if I received his blood.

[ He makes a face that's more like a grimace, although chaos won't see it. Not that he can clearly recall the effects of the whole thing, but hemolytic transfusion reaction is nothing to mess around with. ]

@user; voice

[cosmicwords]

Hm.

I see.

So I take it you were not among the ones who attacked people?

...I wasn't either.

I wandered around in the dark for a while but that's it.

@magenta2; audio

[himalayanyeti]

What'd it feel like?

[No preamble, no explanation, and, frankly, no tact.]

@thebigc; audio

[onlytwothings]

It didn't feel like anything. There were no thoughts or feelings, just complete blankness.

[ It's difficult to describe, because people aren't meant to be automatons. ]

[himalayanyeti]

Right, that's--that's what I figured. It's what happened to me, anyways. Reckon it was part of bein' sick? I've been so sick before that everything just kind of...you know, like you were saying. It gets very far away. I'm guessin' it was just a really awful form of the sick that everyone had, but I'm no doctor.

[onlytwothings]

Your guesses are as good as mine. And why was it only certain people that were affected that way? [ The other question is why did only certain people start murdering others? There's probably no answer to either of those questions. ]

At least it seems to be over for now.

[himalayanyeti]

Mm. Maybe it's a shingles--...chicken-pox thing. You know. The doctors say if you have chicken pox--as I've been told it's called when you have little spots all over, but I thought it was shingles--you can't ever get it again. Maybe there's somethin' we've had before that made us that way? The flu, or somethin' like that. I've had an awful head cold for months.

[Actually, it's a traumatic brain injury, but he's not a doctor.]

We'll see if it's really over, though.

@309_W1C_2DZ; text; private

[howdull]

[He remembers this man, the one with the dead girlfriend who he hadn't been at all pleased with Sherlock for deducing. Though that reminds him of Amber, and he's surprised to note that he misses her somewhat.]

You can do something for me.

[Brushing past the rest, he's at the end of his rope with everything that's been happening and now compounded by John behaving like a total fool.]

My previous consulting physician is indisposed and I require a prescription.

@thebigc; text; private

[onlytwothings]

[ If Wilson learns that Sherlock knew Amber... Well, at least it's one other person who does. ]

Really, and what's that?

[ He's not exactly worried about what it is Sherlock thinks he can do for him, just curious about the suddenness of this request. ]

What kind of prescription?

perma private; cw: drug abuse

[howdull]

I just told you what you could do for me, write me a prescription, can't you read?

[He's just a tad irritable at the moment.]

I have pain from MN poisoning, I require morphine.

cw: drug abuse

[onlytwothings]

You know, if you're asking someone for a favor, it might be a good idea not to bite their head off. Yes, I can read.

[ He's also aware that he probably shouldn't be prescribing to everyone who comes to him asking for drugs. It's done him so many favors in the past, after all. ]

I'm not sure I should be prescribing anything for you, unfortunately. At least not without doing some fact-checking first.

cw: drug abuse

[howdull]

I suppose John has already spoken to you, then.

[Seems self evident and was a possibility, though an irritating one.]

Does this mean I do not deserve assistance with pain due to previous issues?

@hexappeal, Voice - Private

[sleight_of_fate]

Hey. Sorry that we had to see it, sorry you had to go through it. It's kinda fucked up.

How are you feeling now?

[He seems quiet, even a little subdued compared to the last time they spoke.]

@thebigc, Voice - Private

[onlytwothings]

I'm all right. The symptoms didn't last very long.

[ Except for feeling tired, he wouldn't even know he'd been sick at all. ]

Nothing happened to you, did it?

[sleight_of_fate]

Just a little radiation sickness to make things interesting. I was feeling pretty awful...I'm not exactly used to getting sick.

The guy I was with went Manchurian Candidate, but he walked out before anything crazy happened. He's better now, we're cool.

[Being useless probably saved Rhys's life. Go figure.]

[onlytwothings]

I'd say be glad that's all you had. Having a reaction to incompatible blood isn't what anyone would call fun. Not that I can remember every detail, but I can at least imagine how bad it was.

I was apparently doing the same thing before House put a stop to that. The perpetual motion, that is. I don't think I tried to kill anyone.

[ The handcuffs and ropes kept him from doing much of anything. ]

[sleight_of_fate]

Yeah, believe me, I am. I mean, it was bad enough but it could have been worse. I'll take it.

[He goes quiet.]

Even sane, I'm in over my head with this medical shit, so I don't know. It's you guys' playground, I'll stick to treating dehydration and hypothermia. You guys play rough.

Glad you're feeling better, though I might wonder how well you're sleeping sharing room with House after that.