[network] @LELRIC; audio; night 242 [open]

[armoured]

Uh, hey everyone.

[Someone sounds sort of sheepish, mostly to hide the distress that comes from being on the receiving end of being revived.]

I wish I could say that I'd died doing something really worthwhile to help out, but I didn't, it was an anomaly. But I'm-- I'm okay now, I can't even figure out what I've lost. I've tried thinking through all my life but none of my memories seem to be gone, and I've still got all my senses, and I still look like me. I'm kind of scared that there isn't a cost, that would mean they're getting more powerful. Maybe they even have a bigger stone? Maybe they've sacrificed more people?!

[There's a brief pause, and then a more subdued voice continues.]

Okay, so-- maybe I figured it out after all, please forget what I said then. I didn't mean to talk about it so publicly where anyone could hear, especially not when the Admin really might be using philosopher's stones to resurrect people!

[Damn it! Again!]

I mean... I don't think I can lie, and it's like I'm just speaking without getting to think about it first, which is really awkward! What if I end up having a conversation with someone and I don't want to say something to them, and it comes out anyway? What if I tell Steph that I think she's really pretty? OH! Oh no...

Comments

[0thingsonmymind]

thatis not for
you
to de cide

[armoured]

Maybe not, but I'm still not going to stand aside and just let it happen. Not ever.

[0thingsonmymind]

why

[armoured]

I've told you why, this is just going in circles now! I don't want to keep explaining to you when you're not listening, Brian.

[0thingsonmymind]

iam list ening

i donot under stand

[armoured]

That's what I mean, I've been trying to explain and I don't know how else to put it so that you'll understand.

They're living people, it's a life, that makes it important enough to save for me. That's it, it's just that simple.

I have no idea what brian is doing with this anymore

[0thingsonmymind]

some times
death
isthe best on my
opt ion

[armoured]

No, it's not. If you're dead, how can you ever change things the way that you want to? How can you ever make things better? How can you use the answers that you're trying to find?

You can't.

[0thingsonmymind]

you rea lly think
noone
de ser ves
d e a t h
?

pretend the last reply was audio too

[armoured]

Yeah, I really think that. There are ways to deal with bad people that don't involve killing, and I'll never take a life.

I totally missed that it wasn't

[0thingsonmymind]

youare
wrong

[armoured]

You're not going to change my mind, and I'm not going in circles about it again. Goodbye, Brian.

[And he hangs up.]