[network] @username; text; morning 181 [open]

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[This is only the second time that Bucky has ever addressed the network as a whole, and he's just as reluctant this time as he was last time. It digs at the paranoia in his head, putting things about himself out there for just anyone to see, but after what happened last night... There's probably nobody better qualified to talk to the people who were prophet eyed, even if that wasn't him.]

Being controlled to kill makes it not your fault.

[That's a hard thing to accept, though. He knows, he really does.]

Separate your identity from the identity of whoever used your body last night. Recognise you can be dangerous and take precautions, but don't shut down. If you do, they win.

[He knows that he doesn't exactly spell out that he has experience in it, but this amount of implication is the best he can offer. And that's all he can say about it. He hangs up and goes to check on the people he is with in person.]

Comments

[majorlazer]

but it was me

there's no separating
this is bullshit, who wins?

this doesn't make any sense

[advanced]

It wasn't.

In your right mind, do you want to kill anyone? If the answer is no, it's not your fault.

not here;

[spoileralert]

[ She sees. And there's so much she wishes she could say - thank you, and sorry, and please, please forgive me.

But he asked her not to contact him, and she said that she wouldn't. So she watches, but says nothing. ]

text; private

[advanced]

[He doesn't know she's seen this, but he will contact her privately not much later. He still dislikes her a lot, but he owes her contact.]

Sorry.

@jwatson; text; private

[jumpthegun]

Bucky, I'm so sorry. I know you don't think it was me, but god, I'm sorry. I didn't mean those things I said to you.

private;

[advanced]

[He can't deny that the words hurt, but he will never blame John for them.]

I know, it wasn't your fault.

[Moving on...]

Did you hurt anyone or get hurt?

@IAmLegend; audio; private

[definingfuture]

You... That had to be hard for you. Are you all right?

action;

[advanced]

[Really? He's replying over the tablet? Bucky just stares at his screen for a moment, before he pads through to find Tony.]

Did you hurt anyone?

[Ignoring the 'are you alright'.]

@featherydouche; text; private; reply comes closer to midday

[mrcreamsicles]

i dont know why you wanted to bodyguard me
but i refused nat too when she offered basically the same thing

private;

[advanced]

[Poor kid already has issues, he can't imagine this has helped at all.]

Because you're a good kid.

[Isn't that enough?]

action!

[awwnoun]

[ Clint is hiding. He reads the text that Bucky sends out, though - bites his lip. It sounds easy, when Bucky says it, and Clint thinks yeah, Bucky is the most qualified to talk about it, to give advice, but...

He's been avoiding everybody all day. Provided they don't move houses, Clint just curls up on one of the mattresses after he's spoken to Natasha and doesn't move except to look at the tablet occasionally. ]

[advanced]

[He doesn't leave it too long after sending his message before he looks for Clint, he knows that he's likely going to be taking this the hardest. Natasha has some experience with brainwashing techniques and she wasn't the one under them, and Tony didn't kill his close friend.

He sits down on the edge of the mattress and reaches out to put a hand on Clint's shoulder.]

Talk. I'll understand.

[About anything. About what he did, about how he feels now, about anything at all.]

@cabose; text;

[blueteamsproblem]

that is what i hav been saying!!!!! not my fault
it is like an acksident
like how wen u fall over and brake sum1s stuff they shud not get mad at u becose sumbody put gravvity in ur way

[advanced]

It's nothing like that.

[Point blank. Nope.]

@haurchefant; voice

[silverfuller]

This place does seem to find ever more creative means of torture.

text;

[advanced]

[He's always on edge when someone he doesn't really know chimes in.]

Effective, too. A lot of people will struggle with this.

@lockhart; text; private

[powersouls]

I'm so sorry.

[It doesn't mean much, but she can't think of anything else to say.]

private;

[advanced]

[Possibly for the first time, he actually feels less awkward talking to her. Like her actions have cancelled the slate for what he did to her.]

It wasn't your fault, I don't blame you.

action!

[redrooms]

[After Natasha talks to Clint, she goes to find Bucky. It isn't exactly a large house, so it doesn't take long. For all that she's been calm and collected with Clint, she's more furious and upset than she's let on. She does have experience with brainwashing, so she's certainly dealing with it better than Clint is, but she's angry that he has to deal with it at all.

Bucky will understand, at least, and she knows she won't even have to say anything, so she's relieved when she finds him.]

Bucky?

[advanced]

[He understands more than probably anyone else here. He knows what it is to remember the actions done by your hands, but not with your consent, and how it can tear a person apart from the inside.

He's worried about Clint more than any of them, he seems like he's breaking.]

Yeah?

[He glances up at her, not exactly welcoming her to sit with him, but by no means telling her to leave either.]

[dumed]

I wish I could believe that.

[ But he's always told himself the clones had a choice in what they did, and that means he had, too. ]

You sound like you have experience. What precautions do you recommend?

[advanced]

[He's not going to outright confirm he has experience, but that he doesn't deny it is probably telling enough.]

Find someone else who had the other eyes and stick with them, make sure they have the means to restrain you if necessary.

@ketximq; text; private

[mightyratslayer]

[Bucky's words are hard to believe. Charlie sure as hell feels like it's his fault. He attacked a lot of people last night. A lot of friends. Having his head all fucked up doesn't just magic that away.

But it's Bucky. That carries more weight. Bucky would know about this kind of thing. He and Charlie have that in common now. Sort of. Is it the same? He's not sure. It's close enough.]

Thanks.

[Gonna take another page out of Bucky's book and stick to text. It's easier, and Bucky won't mind. Charlie still has to say the words out loud to his tablet, and that still sucks, but he is saying them for real, which shows that he means it even if the tablet isn't recording audio.]

I'm sorry.

private;

[advanced]

[He won't tell Charlie to forget it, he knows how stupid that is. Things like this aren't easily forgotten, they just have to be lived with.]

Don't apologise, it wasn't your fault.

[It's so important for him that they accept this, otherwise they condemn him for what the Soldier did.]

@Ecks | text

[ecks]

i was awake
it was not like before it was not like when we moved i was awake i knew what i was doing

[advanced]

[She is the other one here, other than himself, who understands these things. It gives him pause when she replies, it's unnerving that she knew what she was doing, but it still doesn't change the core message.]

Aware, maybe. But could you stop yourself?

@zd; text

[swatsflies]

Hey Jay!
Yeah that stuff frickin' sucked.
It's not the first time. :(
How are you feeling?

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Not the first time?

[Sorry, he's rudely ignoring the question for one of his own. Did he mean bad things have happened before, or Zell himself has been controlled in the past?]

@donner; text; private

[imgonnatouchit]

I take it you have history with this sort of thing?

I was aware of something like this happening in my world, but it's another experience entirely to have it happen to you personally. Makes me regret certain actions a little more, maybe.

... Do you think it makes a difference how far you went?

private;

[advanced]

[He isn't going to confirm that he has history with this, but it's probably pretty damn obvious.]

No, it makes no difference. No matter if you didn't hurt anyone, or you killed twenty people, it wasn't you doing it. There's no sliding scale of culpability, mind control is mind control.

[warriorscribe]

It wasn't like being controlled by someone else. They were still my thoughts, but also not, somehow.

But thank you.

[advanced]

That's a form of mind control, it's just as dangerous as being wiped blank and forced.