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I question if you truly do mourn. It implies that you cared.

So many have been lost. How many would not be, if you had better prepared us for survival here, or better yet, if you had not taken us from where we belonged at all?

Why do so many people have to die here? We were never meant to be here!

[Bitter? Definitely, at least a little. The isolation is wearing on him.

He is also still blind to the fact that the dead people who come back actually died, and is running under the presumption they are being rescued...and something is being done to them. Something that harms their minds or bodies in some way.]

And what are you doing to the people you only say are dead?

Edited 2015-06-28 04:50 (UTC)

Have they ever answered anybody?

No, but I cannot stand to let this pass without comment anymore. They say they care enough to mourn but they lie to us, and they've left us here to risk death with no explanation but a vague welcome.

Isn't everybody just going to come back though?

[ He was dead for the first week and a half, he hasn't noticed that some people are never heard from again... ]

[He can fix that. It isn't as if he blames this person for not looking closely at the obituaries or keeping count. It's not pleasant, and he knows he surely cannot be the first person to feel any open resentment for these people. He is often, in fact, one of the last.]

The people on these lists who have been heard from again are very few. Some are lies, but far from all.

Oh. I thought... since I am came back...
And nobody knows where they go?
Maybe they're... just in the morgue.

[ Which didn't exactly make him feel better about it, but it was at least more of an answer than them just disappearing. ]

[What an interesting thing to say, about them going somewhere. Was he...actually dead? Did his soul leave his body but then return?]

Their bodies have been found there, yes. Why, did you leave yours?

[If someone makes it to Heaven, maybe, just maybe, he could send a warning to them. Surely they wouldn't leave him trapped here, mission complete or not. They still wanted him there, right?]

My body?

[ It's a reactive message, immediate and there's no followup for a moment as his mind whirls over the question. It almost sounds like it was something he'd had any control over. Eventually, however, he decides it was just an odd way to ask a more straightforward question. ]

I tried to leave the town. There was no shelter and I couldn't see anything. And I was so cold that I wasn't anymore and then I just fell asleep.

[He hadn't intended to sound that way, but he knows it is the natural way of things after death. His soul leaving his body would confirm he did die. Since he doesn't seem to understand, he assumes his theory is correct, still, that he didn't die at all, just rescued just before death and placed somewhere dead bodies are meant to be (or so he assumes from the way everyone keeps citing it as evidence towards death).]

I apologize for the misunderstanding, but when one dies, the soul leaves the body. Because you did not leave yours, and because resurrection after death is impossible even for God and His angels, save special reincarnations, I do not believe all of the people they say have died ever did at all. That you apparently did not leave yours only seems to support this notion.

Couldn't they just put the soul back? They had enough magic to bring us all here.

They might, but that would require retrieving it, and surely you would remember.

[Not that he exactly remembers his soul leaving his body when it did that one time, he just found himself in Heaven again (but different, through the eyes of a corrupted man). So he isn't exactly one to talk. But he does know his soul was his consciousness and that there was no awareness of his body while he was away from it.]

[ There's a hesitance, marked by the time it takes for the reply to come. ]

They had to. I didn't exist any more. My soul was... somewhere else. They have to be able to do it, if I'm here in this body now.

[ Light. He's going to have to explain this and there's a part of him that doesn't want to, that maybe wants to pretend like it's not true. But he remembers having his memories erased, forgetting all about the sad truth of his existence. It hadn't made anything better, and the deception was utterly bittersweet. ]

I'm... what they call a Nobody. I'm not my original self. His name is Sora, and something happened to separate his heart from his body. I'm something leftover, parts of his body and soul but I don't have a heart. We're not supposed to exist, and when we die it's like we never did.

[ Didn't have a heart? Lea had told him they would grow back, had been growing back, but Roxas wasn't sure how he was meant to tell. It made him hesitant to assert he had one, especially after having been indoctrinated into a Nobody cult which insisted they did not possess that core trait. ]

I didn't die, but I don't exist anymore either. We became one whole person again. Sort of... I remember being inside him, in the dark, waiting.

And then I was here.

[He has to read it a couple of times to really understand what he's reading. The implications of him being here are more terrifying than any other's, as far as he's concerned.]

If I'm understanding you properly, then what has happened to this Sora?

[Forget whether he was actually dead or not. Did whoever or whatever brought them here tear a soul apart to get him?]

I don't know.

[ It's a plain, simple answer, without frills. He doesn't know, and it frightens him to think about it. He had sacrificed himself because Sora had needed to save the universe, and couldn't do that while incomplete. What was happening to their worlds if Roxas was here. ]

[This just keeps seeming worse and worse. Someone could be destroyed somewhere else because of this town.]

We must find a way out of here.

I don't know what to do without my magic and my keyblades. I don't feel very useful like this.

How many people have we actually lost? Is there even a way to tell?

It seems random-- who actually dies and who these "administrators" claim are dead.

I think the only way to tell is to wait and see who shows themselves. I saw no pattern in the order listed in the obituaries and those who did not belong on them.

[And it's infuriating, being unable to act and find out. Unable to find out where they are and stop whatever it is that is causing them to lose their senses, their memories. It's infuriating, to be unable to do anything else but leave a message that will certainly not see reply by the persons it was actually directed to.]

I haven't always been able to tell, but it sure seems like we've lost more people than people who these administrators claim are dead.

Couldn't give you an exact number, though. I'm not sure it's possible to tell who is really dead and who doesn't talk much.

And if the pattern of losing things holds, it could be that some who awakened did so unable to use their tablets.

It's honestly difficult to tell how many of us there are in this place.

[The one good thing is that he has finally learned from context and found italics.]

That's right.

There has to be a way to tell. You'd think maybe it would occur to our captors, but as it is I don't have a clue.

I don't think this is something we can do ourselves, either. If someone dies, the numbers will change. If someone only "dies" because this announcement claims so, they might not be able to communicate, either.

It was probably designed this way intentionally.

They greeted us by encouraging us to use the network, so I agree. They likely would prefer we not gather in person, and not knowing how many of us there are here would certainly hinder trying to gather in one place.

Maybe we should try to gather in one place.

Not now; I don't think any of us know the layout of this place well enough to do that, but it must be possible.

Yes, we should try sometime. It would need to be in a place where there are many buildings large enough for us all. Nothing good will come of overcrowding houses and forcing others to die for lack of space.

Has anyone found such a space? All I've found are houses and rubble.

If we can find a landmark surrounded by intact houses, it might suffice. I doubt all of us could fit in one place so easily. There seem to be quite a few houses along the north wall, but I do not know quite how far it runs.

I'll keep an eye out. I haven't found anything like that yet, but it must be possible.

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