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snowblindrpg2016-05-12 04:23 pm
powersouls) wrote in snowblindrpg2016-05-12 04:23 pm
powersouls) wrote in snowblindrpg2016-05-12 04:23 pm
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Who knows who's going to be the next person to betray him, he can't help but think; will it be Tifa? Zach might have tried to keep some kind of face and faith in people when he met Duster the day before, but that was what it was, a face and a need to be contradictory against someone who knows no one in this town yet.
But Zach knows some people now. It's stupid to trust anyone.]
What isn't seems like a better question.
[His voice is softer than it usually is, and he tightens his hold around his knees, looking back down and away. He sighs.]
I'm fine, Tifa. I'm sorry.
[Sorry I was staring. Sorry for being a dick before. Sorry for believing Kesara genuinely liked him. Sorry for leaving Lil T behind. Sorry, sorry, sorry.]
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[She's just... watching him, not sure how to approach this. It's hard for her, when she feels like every conversation they have ends in an argument. He's upset, yes, and she feels bad for him, but... Well. She's not really sure how much he respects her, so she doesn't waste her time saying anything else.]
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For all the shit I've given you.
[He's sincere about it, too - maybe being used and played is giving him the need to make some kind of amends, maybe try and avoid getting more shit thrown at him in the future. Maybe, if he's a better person, if he actively tries, then people will remember and he won't be in their sights whenever the next thing blows up in all of their faces.]
I know I've been a dickhead to you, and I don't even....I don't even know why. I want to have a laugh and I never think about what I say, and with you, it always turns into a fight and - I'm so used to fighting.
[He shakes his head. He needs to learn to keep his shit for Terezi, and Nathan, and House, and people who insult him right back. He's done it so much towards Tifa, he knows by now. She doesn't want any of his BS, and that's cool. That's fair.]
But you shouldn't have to take my shit. So. I'm sorry.
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[She says it sharper than she intended, crossing her arms over her chest defensively. It's an apology, sure. It's something, but she's still not sure she can trust him not to say awful things just for a joke.]
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But that means - he doesn't know what to say, here. He doesn't know why she's still standing here if that's all she's got for him, sharp words and an even sharper look to her eyes. Zach takes his time to reply, thinking his words through, but it doesn't really help.]
Well...you won't have to? I'll - leave you alone. Won't speak to you, or about you. Whatever you want, okay?
[Somehow, he has a feeling he's still saying the wrong things. He's not entirely sure.]
I'm used to it. [He says the words under his breath, not really loud enough for anyone but himself to hear, especially since he mumbles them into his knees. He's used to disappearing, whenever his brother was around, to avoid being bullied some more. He's used to making himself as invisible as possible at home - possibly part of why he made himself so visible at school.
He's used to it. And here, in Norfinbury...it shouldn't even be that hard to do.]
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[She sighs.]
You don't have to leave me alone. Just... be more careful about what you say, okay?
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Running a hand over his face, he drags it through his hair, pushing his hat up for a moment before pushing it back firmly on his head.]
The best I can do is try.
[He wants to say, maybe she could try and be more understanding with him, too, not lash out at every joke like it's so offensive all the time. Yeah, sure, he says offensive shit sometimes, but he can't help and feel like she's got a grudge the size of Texas against him, and it's not entirely warranted.
Oh, well. He doesn't really want to start all over again, though, so he says nothing. Sure, take the blame, Zach, you're the worst person ever, Zach, never forget that nobody likes you, Zach.
He's used to it.]