[He always knew he'd lose her again. But not like this. He'll lose Sherlock and Mycroft, as well, these versions of them, anyway. None of them are from the same time. That means they're not from the same universe, just parallel ones. If he goes back and he remembers everything...
John has no idea what he'll do. Grieve for the fact he won't see Sherlock for some two years? Jump into things faster with Mary? Avoid the whole debacle of her identity being discovered with a bullet through Sherlock's chest? Stop the whole AGRA business before it starts? Stop her dying?
There are so many things he could fix... and absolutely no one he could tell about it. They might figure out something's off. Sherlock almost certainly will. John can keep a secret, though, when he needs to.]
Said you'd blame yourself, not what to say. [John glances over at the other man.] You're not going to take anything? [Pills, he means. John's aware that he has the Ritalin and that's a little problematic, but ODing on that probably won't be as bad as if Sherlock had some of the narcotics in John's possession.]
cw: drugs/drug abuse
John has no idea what he'll do. Grieve for the fact he won't see Sherlock for some two years? Jump into things faster with Mary? Avoid the whole debacle of her identity being discovered with a bullet through Sherlock's chest? Stop the whole AGRA business before it starts? Stop her dying?
There are so many things he could fix... and absolutely no one he could tell about it. They might figure out something's off. Sherlock almost certainly will. John can keep a secret, though, when he needs to.]
Said you'd blame yourself, not what to say. [John glances over at the other man.] You're not going to take anything? [Pills, he means. John's aware that he has the Ritalin and that's a little problematic, but ODing on that probably won't be as bad as if Sherlock had some of the narcotics in John's possession.]