[network] @ASolomons; audio, morning of 265 [open]

[devoutish]

The fuck is going on?

[He sounds exhausted, as per usual, and his voice is hoarse and raw - he's been doing a lot of non-stop talking these past few days, trying to keep Royce engaged.]

Right - the lot of you, sound off. What happened, and what needs to be done?

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cw: references to surgery, blood, torture

[equal_shots]

But if it's the nanomachines, what do we do?

[A part of him knows this isn't a fair question. John won't have an answer and it's not fair for him to look for one. But here they are and Kid's asking for it anyway.]

cw: references to surgery, blood, torture

[jumpthegun]

We get you and everyone else out of here just as fast as we can and work through it when they try to control us, support each other, and recognize that this is something that could happen to any of us.

Re: cw: references to surgery, blood, torture

[equal_shots]

[It's fairly quiet on Kid's side of the line, until John can hear sniffling. Tears.]

I'll do my best.

[The worst part is that he knows he won't. He won't because he can't. He can't do it anymore. But he has to tell Watson that he will--the doctor worries about him incessantly. All of the time. He need not make things worse.]

cw: references to surgery, blood, torture

[jumpthegun]

That's all anyone can ask of you, Kid, and try to remember that your 'best' isn't going to be the same from day-to-day or hour-to-hour. If you need to, just come back to this message to remind yourself, okay?

cw: references to surgery, blood, torture

[equal_shots]

[He's not sure he can. He hurt people. He broke people, all his fault, all his fault. He can't do it anymore.

But Watson needs to believe that he can. He has to stop the sobs long enough to convince him, to say that he at least understands. That if this were to happen again they'll work together again.

Choking through the tears:] Mm-- [He has to stop to catch his breath, to try and settle himself enough that he can make sound.] Mmhm. I will.

[He won't. He'll never look at this message again.]

cw: references to surgery, blood, torture

[jumpthegun]

Kid... [John can tell he's just saying what he wants to hear at this point.] I'll check in with you in a few days, okay? I'll remind you of all of this then.

cw: references to surgery, blood, torture

[equal_shots]

[He's nodding at the camera, but Kid doesn't want to hear from Watson again. Not about this. Just thinking about him calling to encourage him makes him feel ill.] Mmhm.

Bye, Dr. Watson. [After that, Kid hangs up. If Watson were to call again, he won't answer.]