[network] @ASolomons; audio, morning of 265 [open]

[devoutish]

The fuck is going on?

[He sounds exhausted, as per usual, and his voice is hoarse and raw - he's been doing a lot of non-stop talking these past few days, trying to keep Royce engaged.]

Right - the lot of you, sound off. What happened, and what needs to be done?

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[devoutish]

He was one of the ones who went after you?

[himalayanyeti]

I didn't say that. Where is he?

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[lacecase]

You're not going to hurt him, are you?

[SHE'S WORRIED SHE'S REALLY WORRIED.]

[himalayanyeti]

[Shit.]

I'm not gonna answer that.

[lacecase]

[She knows that's a yes she can tell it's a yes and she already wants to cry!!!]

Please reconsider! I know that everyone who was made to do all those awful things has to feel so, like, totally terrible and I'm not saying that you have to forgive any of them because it's got to be so hard for you too because you were hurt so, so, so badly, but fighting more now is only going to make everyone feel so much worse and I'm just, like, so super sorry that any of this ever had to happen--

[She could go on.]

[himalayanyeti]

I want him to feel worse, y'know. I get what you mean, but I want it to happen. I want him to suffer worse'n I did. And don't apologize when it ain't your fault, 'cause it gets old quick.

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[keepscalm]

Are you American?

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[himalayanyeti]

born n raised why

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[keepscalm]

I can guarantee you that your hatred and anger will hurt him more than any violence you could enact upon him. In fact, he would probably let you hurt him in an attempt to alleviate the guilt he feels for hurting one of his own citizens. It would make him feel better if you sought revenge.

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[himalayanyeti]

wow who the fuck are you first of all

second of all

you werent in there you didnt see what he did to me. i dont think you get that i dont care about his stupid feelings and guilt or whatever. im a guilty guy too i get it. what the fuck ever. i want to make him hurt like he hurt me. i want to make sure he never hurts me or anyone else ever again

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[keepscalm]

I was in there, actually. I know what he did, and I know America better than anyone else in this town does.

So I'm telling you how best to hurt him.

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[himalayanyeti]

oh you were one of the other guys then huh?? if you were in there. i dont remember seeing you with the rest of us so i reckon you were one of the ones hurting us then

i dont trust anything you say for a fucking minute buddy

[lacecase]

I know. I mean, like, about apologizing when I didn't do anything. It's just this is such a...horrible thing...that has caused so many people to suffer. And the apologies aren't going to come from the right place no matter what, I don't think.

[Everybody deserves to know that they're being thought of and that their feelings are being taken into consideration. Words are all she has. Words and, like, knitted gifts.]

And America's the kind of person who would probably just let you do whatever you wanted to him if he thought it would help you feel better--but I just don't know how senseless violence can help. Are you sure it would help?

[himalayanyeti]

It would definitely help, I can tell you that! It ain't senseless. I have all my senses about me, if you wanna get specific. If he doesn't hurt like he hurt me, he's never gonna learn any better. I don't believe the bullshit about it not bein' his fault. He did it. I watched him do it. That's enough.

[lacecase]

Okay.

[She isn't going to endorse this sort of behavior but it's not her place to try and tell him to feel differently. Especially not in a situation like this. Ginger just wishes she could say something that is more convincing. She's not sure she's capable of that. She knows she's not really the most well-spoken.]

And I know I don't have any real right to comment on what any of you went through, either, so I won't--I promise. All I can say is that I know he knows how much pain he caused you. So, like, anything you do to him won't change how much regret he already feels. I want you to feel better too, though. What you went through wasn't something anyone should have to experience

[himalayanyeti]

Regret isn't enough. Regret hurts, maybe, but not as much as he hurt me. I don't care if he feels bad, or sad, because I can absolutely tell you I feel worse. I 'ppreciate the thought, though.

[lacecase]

Sure thing, sugar. Travel safe, okay?

[SHE CAN'T BE MEAN TO PEOPLE.]

[himalayanyeti]

Right. You too, yeah?

[He sounds remarkably concerned for someone threatening her traveling partner at more or less the exact same time.]

[devoutish]

Haven't got a clue.

Wasn't really their fault, was it.

[Despite believing it, though, he doesn't sound super convincing. He doesn't have anything against America, but he doesn't have any real investment in him either, and that's about all the energy he has to give to defend him.]

[himalayanyeti]

Fuck that. He did it, it was his fault. I don't give a shit about anythin' else.

[devoutish]

You always have been a fucking idiot.

[himalayanyeti]

You're one to fuckin' talk, jackass. You weren't in there.

[devoutish]

Which gives me a clearer head on the matter.

You're acting on emotion and nothing else; at least admit it.

[himalayanyeti]

Is that a bad thing? Quite fuckin' personally, I think I'm justified in wantin' to find that motherfucker and teach him a lesson.

[devoutish]

There's no lesson to teach. He's got nothing to learn. He was out of his fucking head, right; his actions weren't his own. No, what you wanna do is make him hurt. The way you put it to Ginger is more honest than the way you're putting it to me now.

But I'm not gonna argue this with you. Do what you like; fuck off.