[ Admitting to all of this where everybody could see it had been bad enough. Knowing that another angel, especially one as good and loyal as Metatron (even if he did not consider himself an angel as such) had seen it and hearing his reaction was something else entirely. His breath draws up short, his borrowed heart pounds. ]
He doesn't - He does not hand them over. He - [ Castiel's voice is despairing, almost pained - a stark contrast to the resigned sadness he'd spoken with in his original message. He fumbles with his tablet's controls, catches himself before he says too much. He knows how to do this now.
He switches the transmission to private and everything he'd been trying to hide escapes him like a dam breaking. ]
I don't know what He does any more, Enoch. I don't know what's Him and what's the Archangels and what's their lieutenants. The only one of us who even claims to have heard His voice in centuries is Michael and I had no reason to believe he was lying before, but things changed so much after you - after Metatron and Gabriel left. He grew so distant, He left all of us to try to guess at what He wanted.
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He doesn't - He does not hand them over. He - [ Castiel's voice is despairing, almost pained - a stark contrast to the resigned sadness he'd spoken with in his original message. He fumbles with his tablet's controls, catches himself before he says too much. He knows how to do this now.
He switches the transmission to private and everything he'd been trying to hide escapes him like a dam breaking. ]
I don't know what He does any more, Enoch. I don't know what's Him and what's the Archangels and what's their lieutenants. The only one of us who even claims to have heard His voice in centuries is Michael and I had no reason to believe he was lying before, but things changed so much after you - after Metatron and Gabriel left. He grew so distant, He left all of us to try to guess at what He wanted.
I didn't know what to do.