...Somewhat. [ A lot, actually. In fact there are a lot of things he said previously in this conversation that he really shouldn't have said in a publicly viewable forum. Learning how to filter things like this is something he'll have to work on. ]

I lost faith in my commanders and my brothers-in-arms, and in that moment of doubt I made to sabotage what many of us had been working towards for our entire lives. [ He's being vague, here. He doesn't want to talk about the Apocalypse, or the Winchesters, or even Heaven. But he does want to talk about what he did. Sort of. It's complicated. ] If I was successful, then there will be no undoing the damage I did. If I wasn't, then I will die a traitor and a coward.