[It does comfort him, and he's a little appalled by that, but after a moment he gathers it tight. It's the start of seeing - if not meaning, then something to put up, a story to tell himself. Perhaps a lie, but he's used to those.]

John, he was - when he tried to stop me, it registered as a threat - a threat to Rhys. Even though he was gone. I thought, I - I couldn't think.