That makes him pause. For a moment the fight goes out of him and his shoulders slump as he brings up a hand to rub at his forehead.

"I... It was bad." His voice is quiet. "He'll probably act like it wasn't but it was. I really hurt him, Stephen. Deeply. I... probably hurt him worst of all." He sits down on the couch, staring at his hands. "I know it's not my fault, I know that, but-- but if I stay and it happens again..."