She turns her head away, refusing to let the tears fall.
"Is it okay if I just... just rely on you guys, just for tonight? I'll do better tomorrow. I'll be better." She chews her lip, wanting so badly for it to be true. Sleep will definitely do her good, but so will feeling safe, just for a few hours.
"I was so..." The tears fall anyway, and she looks at the ground again. She really does feel like she's not in control of herself, like her body and mind are working on their own and she's left just watching from the sidelines.
"I woke up and you guys were gone, and I thought I was losing my mind. I thought, maybe we were never here in the first place. I've never been so scared in my life, not even when my dad pulled a gun on me."
cw: suicide talk
"Is it okay if I just... just rely on you guys, just for tonight? I'll do better tomorrow. I'll be better." She chews her lip, wanting so badly for it to be true. Sleep will definitely do her good, but so will feeling safe, just for a few hours.
"I was so..." The tears fall anyway, and she looks at the ground again. She really does feel like she's not in control of herself, like her body and mind are working on their own and she's left just watching from the sidelines.
"I woke up and you guys were gone, and I thought I was losing my mind. I thought, maybe we were never here in the first place. I've never been so scared in my life, not even when my dad pulled a gun on me."