It took me a long time and a lot of mistakes to get there. Kinda nice if someone else can benefit from it, you know?
My best friend was murdered about five years ago, by a jealous ex-boyfriend. She was pretty much the most important person I ever had in my life, and it nearly destroyed me.
[Deep breath.]
It still hurts. Some nights, it will just hit me out of nowhere and it hurts like a heart attack. But it's better now, too. I think of the times she made me happy, the things that she liked, the things that I like now because she gave them to me. And I know one day, if everything works out, maybe I'll see her again, but the time that I did have her, I was incredibly lucky and those years were so important to me. And...that's what I hang onto. How she made my life better, not what it cost when she was taken away.
That was the kind of person she was. That's what she would have wanted.
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My best friend was murdered about five years ago, by a jealous ex-boyfriend. She was pretty much the most important person I ever had in my life, and it nearly destroyed me.
[Deep breath.]
It still hurts. Some nights, it will just hit me out of nowhere and it hurts like a heart attack. But it's better now, too. I think of the times she made me happy, the things that she liked, the things that I like now because she gave them to me. And I know one day, if everything works out, maybe I'll see her again, but the time that I did have her, I was incredibly lucky and those years were so important to me. And...that's what I hang onto. How she made my life better, not what it cost when she was taken away.
That was the kind of person she was. That's what she would have wanted.