[He's quiet the whole way through, just letting John talk. It's pretty easy for even him to see that this has all been bubbling under the surface for too long and he needs to let it out. It's not pretty.

But he can identify. He knows what it's like to hurt his best friend, though not for the reasons mentioned, and he knows what it's like to hate himself for it too.]

You're worried he won't forgive you, because you can't forgive yourself.

[Again, it's not a question. He gets it. And again, he ignores Steve being brought up for now. It's too much to bring him into it right then, at least so directly.]

Maybe you won't ever forgive yourself, but I'd lay money that he's already forgiven you if he even blamed you to begin with. [His voice gets softer. This is about John, so it's easier to phrase these things than if they were talking about him.] Maybe you don't even want to be saved, maybe you don't feel like you deserve to be saved after what you've done. It makes no difference, if you want to save him then you'll let him save you. That's how it works.