I think the difference is one moment to stall versus constant control to kill. No, you're right.

[He sighs, finding himself again having the same talk, the same doubts he keeps coming back to. It's like a whirlpool.]

It's not... a great solution. It's not good. I don't want to force people to do anything, but I believe that in the face of one force hijacking us to hurt other people, sometimes you have to do things you hate because you have the choice. And maybe it's better to choose and regret than to let others just regret.