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[network] @username; text; night 164 [open]

[It's all over.

He's almost glad that he has John and his grief to focus on right now, because otherwise his paranoia would be burning a hole through his head. His username is out there, linked with his real name, linked even with photographs. They're public, anyone can see them, so many people already have. He has to do something about this, stop people from coming after him. Not that he doesn't deserve their anger, or their revenge, but it will just lead to more people getting hurt.

There's only one thing to do.

He can feel fear twisting in his gut as he picks up the tablet and sends out probably one of the shortest messages that's been broadcast.]

My name is Bucky Barnes. I'm not safe to be around. Stay away from me.

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No, it's not. It's yours for not considering how they'd feel about your actions.

[Iron Man is petulant. He didn't sign up for this ride!]

And so you thought validating their claims and requesting to be left alone would aid you?

If aught at all, you have merely placed a target on your back for those whom wish to seek justice for what may or may not have been just acts.

[Estinien has not a horse in this race, but he's fine enough pointing out the self deriment this sort of thing poses.]

I know. That's what I'm trying to tell everyone.

[All of this is his responsibility, he's trying to face those consequences.]

[He sighs in irritation. It was kind of a stupid decision in retrospect, but he panicked. He was so scared that people would come after him, scared of his face and name being out there, that he reacted on instinct.]

It's too late now.

{So much too late.]

People were going to come after me anyway, this way some people might change their minds.

I cannot say I would blame them.

[Blunt as always]

But if those whom cannot measure against you martially so chooses to seek you out, then they have naught to blame but themselves if they end up dead for it.

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You rotten liar!

[Doing this privately would have been more gracious, more merciful. Kesara is not feeling merciful. And she wants evidence, in case - in case she is biting off more than she can chew. Again.]

I knew all along you were up to no good!

Nobody is going to end up dead!

[Emphatic, even though text.]

Even if people fight me, I'm not going to kill anyone.

[Ah.

He feels a small twist of sadness. He remembers her making him smile, a small act of kindness between them, but it's better this way.]

I never lied.

[When did he ever say he was safe?]

How can you be confident in that? How can we be confident in that? You certainly seem fit to mention your double homicide, claim 'tis why you're dangerous and that others should stay away, yet deny that any will end up dead should they seek you out.

Which is it? Are you a danger, or are you in control?

Well, I'll give you points for owning up, but you lose at least two of those because you're trying to do it on your own. You've got those two worked up. I don't have to be there with them to tell that much.

You can't do it on your own. And before you stick out your jaw, I mean you can't because they won't let you. And if they get in a fight over you, I get in the fight too. So try to cut us all some slack, okay?

[He's so frustrated, how is this going from bad to worse? He hesitates over it, but switches to private in the end.]

Both. I am a danger because I'm not always in control. When I killed, I wasn't.

I don't want anyone to get in a fight over me.

[He's not worth that.]

I'll accept your help in containing me, but I don't need any of you to fight for me. I know what I did, I'm willing to accept the consequences.

Too late, big guy. You're already claimed and contracted. Trust me, if you think you can talk Widow out of standing by you--or Hawkeye--I'll bet my entire inventory against your word.

What, you really think the Avengers are going to let you receive justice at the hands of this crazy gang? Yeah, no, half of them are probably just as bad.

[The switch to private is noted.]

So, then you cannot be confident that you will not kill those whom seek you out, can you?

[He will give it his best shot.]

I'm not asking you to throw me to the wolves, just not to fight my battles.

Okay, so given the choice between wolves or forceful allies, which would you take?

I have control now, I can handle it. I'm not going to slip, and I'm not going to kill.

Those aren't the only choices. I want your help in controlling myself, I'm going to accept it, but I don't want you shielding me from facing the consequences of what I've done.

No one's shielding you from what you've done. We're shielding you from being an idiot. And what you haven't done. That's also an option.

And I'm not really the one you'd need to negotiate the terms of that with.

[Because he's Sora. And this is what Sora does.]

Well that's good to know. But that doesn't mean you might not be not alright in some other way. I'm just worried.

Mess is an understatement.

[Maybe Bucky just wants to punish himself for doing bad shit by having other people do it for him. Charles is only slightly uncomfortable with the fact that he can completely understand.]

Least he's not a serial killer or something... Watson said you guys were basically gonna babysit him. You think that'll work, or what if he just turns on you at some point?

Are you not?

[He sounds a bleak, tired.]

I thought you were the leader of this group.

I'm fine. Don't worry about me.

[Seriously, he's so confused. He can't help asking, genuinely befuddled rather than self pitying. He just said he wasn't safe, Sora saw him in the aquarium being threatening, so why?]

Why are you worrying?

Technically speaking, but I just handle the laundry.

[He leads in order to achieve what the boss wants.]

It gets easier. In case you were wondering.

I can't help it. I worry about everyone.

[Because he can't do anything to protect people here so instead he just worries. A lot.]

Because everyone needs someone to worry about them. To look out form them.

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