snowblindrpg | [network] @Ecks; In the open [open] [video] evening 156

[She's been thinking about this for days and days now. She's thought about it since House said it was stupid to keep everything a secret and that she'd get more sympathy if she was honest about her age. Since Beckett didn't understand why it was a secret at all. Then since Watson told everyone she was a murderer, but then told Clint she was trying to be a good girl.

Since she ran away from Clint and his people this morning even though he didn't try to hurt her once he knew what she had done to Duster.

She waits until after lockdown just in case they are all wrong and someone will try to find her after this. The video opens with her looking into the camera, her scarf bunched around her neck but her patchwork face clearly on display. Her expression is blank, her voice toneless.]

My name is Ecks and I am not human. I have decided that it is not a secret anymore. I am a golem made out of dead people, but I am a person and that is the part that is important. I am two years old and a few months and I have decided that I do not want to hurt or kill people when I do not have to, and that is also important. Doctor House and Beckett say that it does not matter what I am and I think I would be happy if that is true.

[It seems like there should be more than that to say, but she just stares a moment longer before turning off the camera. She will not bring up the murder if she does not have to.]

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whatis
go lem
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*He doesn't really care what she is, he just doesn't know that word.*

[Aigis isn't sure what to expect when she first sees the post. The girl(?) certainly doesn't look like most humans Aigis has seen, but she's still humanoid. As the video goes on, of course, Aigis realizes why she looks so different.

She doesn't respond right away, needing to think about what to say, if she should even say anything. She doesn't really know this person, but she does know what it's like to hide what you are. To be afraid that you're not good enough because you aren't human.

It makes her sad, to think that someone else feels like that.

So she decides to send a video message in response, made private just in case.] Hello, Ecks-san. It's nice to meet you. My name is Aigis.

I'm not human, either.

[Oh, Ecks.]

"When you don't have to." Was someone making you hurt people before?

[Charles hasn't met Ecks much, just briefly that time in the clinic, and then they talked some when she was auctioning condoms. She seemed weird, but not bad weird. Kinda nice, actually. Sucks that she apparently murdered Royce, because he likes Royce, but he also can't exactly judge. So he doesn't just spitefully skip her post like he does with some people.

Instead, he listens with growing unease. Made out of dead people? Like Frankenstein? That's... horrifying, but also, Ecks didn't choose to be what she is. And she's right, she is a person. Thinking of people as anything less than people is the start to basically everything horrible, and he's not gonna do it.

Also, she's a kid. Soft spot activated.]

Hey, good on you. For, you know, deciding no to be a murderer anymore. [He can kinda relate to that whole "having to kill people without wanting to" thing, the one he can read between the lines here. Her decision is... kind of admirable, really. Even if sticking to it clearly hasn't been easy.] Was there someone making you hurt people before? Or did someone try to do that here?

It doesn't matter what you are, Ecks. You're a person, and like I said, nothing can take that away from you.

[ Whoa! So this is why she was upset about face stealing. After a bit, he'll turn the feed on. Seated in his lap is the rainbow dog. Look, her future friend is here with him! ]

Yo, Ecks.

[ He's going to make the little plush dog wave a paw. ]

GH and Beckett are telling the truth. It doesn't matter what you are, but who you want to be.

[ And in Zell's books, she's pretty great! ]

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[Solidarity. Ecks is going to hold herself to this and use video.]

I think it is not as unusual as I thought it was to not be human here. Beckett says it is not strange. Is it a secret that you are not human?

[For once in her life, Ecks is matching media to the people who reply instead of blasting everyone with text. It is...strange.]

Before I was here I did the things that I was told to do, and sometimes I was told to kill people. I did not find a reason why and so I decided to stop.

[That soft spot activation is exactly why House told her to share the part about how old she is ages ago now. Ecks, of course, has no idea how well it's worked.]

No one tried to do that here. When I was home I did the things I was told to do, but now I choose what I will do and what I will not do.

[She can neither confirm nor deny, good sir.]

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I think that is true. I am glad that is true.

[Rainbow dog! Sorry, her gaze is just locked on that thing. It is glorious and she wants it so bad.]

Doctor House does not always tell the truth but I think he told the truth this time. I want to be a good person, and I think that is important.

i told you no one would care
idiot

your mom is an idiot

[Don't you talk about his mom, Ecks.]

your dad's face is a spider

Me, too, and I'm glad you've decided you don't want to hurt or kill when you don't have to. I'm proud of you making that decision, Ecks. It's a very good one.

Yes, yes, we know. Everyone is a spider and your ass is a mum's face. Congratulations, Ecks, that was brave.

[Natasha? Relating to this? Nah.]

That can be a difficult decision to make, changing yourself. It's brave of you to do.

[Is it a secret? Aigis supposes it is.]

There are some people who know, but not everyone. I was supposed to keep it a secret back home.

It's true that it seems to be different here...but the idea of telling everyone is still frightening. [She admires that Ecks can do this. It must have been very scary, indeed.]

It was one of my first decisions that was my decision and not someone else's. It is not as simple as I thought it would be but it is still important to try to be better.

I will not tell if you do not want it to stop being a secret.

[She was very keen on people not telling back before she was ready to do this, after all, and despite any appearances to the contrary Ecks's moral system is based on an instinct of empathy.]

No one has said that they are angry or that they will come after me, but I waited until now so I would be sure I was alone in this house in case they did.

You look human to me. What are you?

Not wanting to hurt people is good. I'm glad... And it doesn't matter what you are.

It is easier because I am here. I left home and did not know where I would go, but then I was here and no one was here to tell me what to do.

I know that you know that I killed Duster. I know that you were talking to Doctor Watson.

correct
but also your face is a spider's ass
so take a hike

i am glad you were right

I think that you were right also, but not about everyone being spiders

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