devoutish: (I'm full of julep and I got a gun)

@ASolomons; audio

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-12 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
[Alfie is aware, in a distant way, that he doesn't actually want to be doing this. The thing is, that doesn't actually matter. He wants to talk just as much as he doesn't want to, and it's the wanting that drives him to switch on his tablet.]

I didn't fear death much at home. In the war, yeah, sometimes; that was different. But in my office with another man, both of us with our guns out and pointed in each other's faces - I fucking enjoyed that. But I fear dying slowly here, inside and out. I fear living without hope of ever going home. My home, my neighborhood - I can't properly describe it to the people here, because I believe a good number of you, from what I've heard of your lives, have never truly belonged anywhere like that, and haven't got any comparable experiences to relate it to. And if we do make it home by some fucking miracle, I hope I lose all my memories of this place, because I fear it will taint me forever if I don't. I was saved from the war getting too deep under my skin. I don't know that I'd be so lucky with Norfinbury.

[He pauses to shift around a little, deeply uncomfortable, and then he continues.]

Royce is the closest thing I've got here to a brother here. I truly don't know what I'd do here without him. I've resigned myself to the idea that Watson's gonna lead himself to a bad end. Kesara's dead, that brilliant girl. Marvelous girl. Did more than most of the rest of us put together, she did. House comes back, the Joker comes back, but not her. And Fiona-- I kissed her. Died. Came back, and she was gone.

And Tifa and Emily.

[He almost doesn't say any more than that. He feels like he doesn't need to - their names alone are synonymous with fear and missing right now.]

Yeah. That little girl, she died in my arms. She told me it was all right, because she believed they would come back, and we would go pick them up. But it's been four days, now.

I still hear her voice.
rubikscomplex: (srs | glances)

@hotstud_xxx; text (cw: suicidal ideations)

[personal profile] rubikscomplex 2017-03-12 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
i don't want to come back
they should
devoutish: (put your money where your mouth is)

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-12 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
If I thought I could switch your places, I'd hunt you down and kill you immediately.
rubikscomplex: (cane | looking down)

[personal profile] rubikscomplex 2017-03-12 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
i'd let you
but try to take you down with me
devoutish: (put your money where your mouth is)

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-12 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
Two against one.

[Because in this hypothetical situation where killing House would bring the girls back, he knows Royce would be on board.]

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agravating: (Downcast)

@mewatson, voice

[personal profile] agravating 2017-03-12 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[Mary had been keeping her tablet far away. There are some things that are meant to be private, but she'd pulled the device out and overheard Alfie and couldn't help it. Her voice is more fearful than it had been the first time, they'd spoken. More anxious.]

I'm afraid for John. I don't want him to die. I would give anything, anything--if it meant he could be safe.
devoutish: (put your money where your mouth is)

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-12 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Convince him to stop trying to save everyone, one at a time. Convince him it's not his duty.
Edited 2017-03-12 20:42 (UTC)
agravating: (Hidden Eyes)

[personal profile] agravating 2017-03-12 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I've tried. I try. And I know I'm no better, running off to keep him safe. But I've training he just doesn't have. But he craves danger, then forgets the risk. Here, death doesn't always last but... [She trails off, hesitant.]

At home, I'm dead. There's nothing I can do to help him there.
devoutish: (I'm full of julep and I got a gun)

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-12 09:41 pm (UTC)(link)
You want advice from me. But I can't give it.

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spoileralert: sad, worried, serious, sorry, tired (apologetic)

@Spoiler ; video

[personal profile] spoileralert 2017-03-13 03:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She doesn't know why she's saying this to him. She doesn't like him, and she certainly doesn't want to comfort him.

But she's been thinking about death nonstop for days now. And it needs to be said. ]


We'll bring them back. I don't care what we have to do to keep the nanobots powered that are keeping them alive, I am taking them with us. My world has the technology to wake them up.
spoileralert: (concerned)

[personal profile] spoileralert 2017-03-13 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
And then...

[ She deflates, if that's possible. ]

And then I don't know. But won't it be good enough, if they're alive? If they have the chance to choose what to do with their lives?
devoutish: (if you see something‚ say nothing)

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-13 04:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Not everyone would be happy being stuck in your world. Fiona's got family. Emily's got family. Better than dead is not good enough.

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keepscalm: (109❦I was false of heart)

@SceptredIsle; voice

[personal profile] keepscalm 2017-03-14 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
[There's a certain hesitation in his voice, uncertainty at further overstepping his boundaries after his message the other day, but they all seem to be overstepping a bit tonight.]

You'd be all right with forgetting them if you went back?
devoutish: (your ass haunts me)

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-14 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
I'd hate it. But then I'd forget.
keepscalm: (027❦begins a journey in my head)

[personal profile] keepscalm 2017-03-14 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. Suppose it's a bit of a pointless question, isn't it.

Forgetting would certainly be easier. [Abhorrent, really, but easier.]

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quadrangle: (yeah i guess)

@carcinoGeneticist; audio

[personal profile] quadrangle 2017-03-14 09:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's... a lot he could reply to here, but Karkat finds himself fixating on those last few sentences. With that in mind, there's really only one thing he can say.]

I'm sorry. We'll... like Steph said, we'll bring them back, right? Or maybe they'll come back on their own. It'll just take a while.
devoutish: (059)

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-14 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
It would be nice to believe that whole-heartedly.
quadrangle: (weh)

[personal profile] quadrangle 2017-03-15 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
[He sighs.]

Yeah, I get what you mean. Still, there's... at least a chance, right? We have to try.

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armoured: (gen] attentive)

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[personal profile] armoured 2017-03-15 12:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[They don't know each other that well, and they haven't always got along, but he's not about to just bypass this.]

I'm so sorry.

[Soft and genuine.]

I know it's not a lot of comfort when we've all lost people here, but they wouldn't want you to hurt because of them. Try to remember the good memories you had together.
devoutish: (that's just murder math)

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-15 12:51 pm (UTC)(link)
I know grief, kid. Saying that, hearing it - it does not stop hurt.
armoured: (gen] peaceful)

[personal profile] armoured 2017-03-15 01:05 pm (UTC)(link)
I know.

[Believe him, he understands that too.]

But it can help to turn the grief into something less destructive.

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bywolves: (broods)

@duster, audio

[personal profile] bywolves 2017-03-16 05:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ This is a while later, maybe an hour after Alfie originally speaks up. ]

You need better taste in friends.
devoutish: (put your money where your mouth is)

[personal profile] devoutish 2017-03-16 05:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[Alfie doesn't even answer over the tablet - as soon as he sees Royce's message, he gets up and goes looking for him. The kitchen is his first stop.]
bywolves: (hnnnn distance.)

[personal profile] bywolves 2017-03-16 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[ That's where he's at, as usual. He's pushed the table up against the wall, backpack against the wall so he can lean on it, blanket wrapped around him. Gwen's scarf is in his lap, and he's running his fingers over it. He'd gotten a bit better, back home, but he can feel himself slipping back down into that numb, distant state. And really, it's just easier to do than anything.

He doesn't look up when Alfie comes in. ]


Come to scold me in person?

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